It's Been Awhile

It's Been Awhile Since I Could Hold My Head Up High,
It's Been Awhile Since I First Saw You,
It's Been Awhile Since I Could Stand On My Own Two Feet Again,
It's Been Awhile Since I Could Call You.

And Everything I Can't Remember,
As Fucked Up As It All May Seem,
The Consequences That I've Rendered
I've Stretched Myself Beyond My Means.

It's Been Awhile Since I Could Say That I Wasn't Addicted, And,
It's Been Awhile Since I Consider I Love Myself As Well As,
It's Been Awhile Since I've Gone And Fucked Things Up Just Like I Always Do,
It's Been Awhile But All That Shit Seems To Disappear When I'm With You.

And Everything I Can't Remember,
As Fucked Up As It All May Seem,
The Consequences That I've Rendered
I've Gone And Fucked Things Up Again…

Why Must I Feel This Way,
Just Make This Go Away,
Just One More Peaceful Day,

And It's Been Awhile Since I Could Look At Myself Straight,
And It's Been Awhile Since I Said I Was Sorry,
And It's Been Awhile Since I've Seen The Way The Candles Lights Your Face,
And It's Been Awhile But I Can Still Remember Just The Way You Taste.

And Everything I Can't Remember,
As Fucked Up As It All May Seem,
To Be I Know It's Me
Can I Blame This On My Father?
He Did The Best That He Could For Me?

It's Been Awhile Since I Could Hold My Head Up High,
And It's Been Awhile Since I Said I Was Sorry